ME IN MY MIND

Scene opens        ( Living room , low light )  James and Ally standing next to a framed picture of Jess . Saying goodbye to guests James: ( face full of sadness ) Thank you for coming Jess would really appreciate it.  Guest1 : you gotta be strong for your daughter. It's what Jess would want . James : thank you ( how dare you tell me what Jess would want )  Guest1: if there's anything you need, any help with ally . I want you to know my door is always open .  Ally:  Thank you so much . ( Escorts guest out ) That was the last person dad.  James: it's over ? Ally: I'm gonna make some coffee and clean up a little, do you want some . James : No I'm just gonna sit here a while.  Ally: ( worried ) Dad......... Dad ......... I love you.  James : ( flashes a dry smile ) Jess : you know you have to let me go at some point. I gotta say I love the dress you put me in.   James: it's my favorite you know.Do you rememb...

It was February 2007 ten years ago, Sunday afternoon. Mother was making lunch as she usually did Martha was playing in the grass as she did.     You see Martha was "special" as mother always said, she was different. Brian hated her, he blamed her for father, he looked at her with disgust wondering how someone could be so helpless. He hated the attention she got from mother. It was always Martha needs this and Martha needs that. Brian on the other hand had to care for him self.   One day they came home, Martha had just been rejected by another special school, mother was crying, money had become an issue, they couldn't afford to pay for special schools again or nannys or doctors, mother had to get a job, Brian couldn't get toys anymore, there were no Christmas mornings and the poor thing did not even know it. She was always happy, always running around and laughing. That day after dinner Brian sat at the window and watched his father go to the car lock it and shoot hi...

J ennifer and Jason are watching a TV show, one of those competition shows that Jason always has an opinion on, "The judges have no talent " just rich douche bags, he says. She always agrees.        An ad comes on its one of the #imwithher ads,it says something about creating jobs or something she doesn't pay much attention anymore . You know she's not good for this country Jason begins, how do you mean ? She asks knowing fully what he was gonna say. "BENGHAZI " Jason continues. What about Benghazi ? She asks feigning ignorance . She knows that Jason knows as much about Benghazi as Lindsay Lohan does. She is a fucking liar and she killed some Americans, babe you know you should read the papers more he says . I see she responds. Jason does not know shit about Benghazi, probably doesn't know where it is or that it is a place. It's something he's just heard on the tele  .     He's just one of those people who feel they have to be heard,an actu...

P.D.A. : public display of affection     Growing as children in Nigeria , we learnt that P.D.A (kissing affectionately or just being intimate in public) was a bad thing, a sin in fact , that intimacy itself was something to be hidden , done in the bedroom away from the prying eyes 👀 of the public. Being intimate in public was something only the " bad boys " and " bad girls " did. We were all supposed to pretend people did not kiss or have sex , even talking about it made you bad. You know what people were not ashamed to do in public though FIGHT( that's for another time).  Our parents were careful not to be too intimate in front of their children so they would not spoil us.  SPOILT : a term used to describe a child who knew what a kiss was and that adults slept with each other. I like many African children born before the millennia and the early 2ks have not seen their parents kiss, not because they don't kiss but because as I said they did not want to sp...

BLACK BEAUTY   So "black beauty". I'm not one to talk on the topic of race or racism because I feel sometimes it's overrated, I feel sometimes Africans/blacks take it too seriously, this isn't really a discussion of racism as it is a discussion of race as both parties (black and white ) are guilty of this.  So I was online browsing and I was looking at some pictures when I saw this picture. Normally I would see something like this and not really be interested, but for some reason I saw this picture today and I thought how wrong. It was a magazine cover ,on it there was a black woman and by her side it said "BLACK BEAUTY".  This phrase although very generic really is wrong. Now some people would get angry without reading the whole post.  What I mean , have you ever seen a magazine with a with a white woman on it captioned "WHITE BEAUTY"? We use the phrase like OMG there actually is a beautiful black person, like just get closer and you wi...

                                              CAFÉ MYSTÈRE ! It was a cold Sunday afternoon, I had decided to go for a walk when I stumbled upon a new cafe that just opened around the corner, CAFÉ MYSTÈRE the sign said in bold red letters, intriguing I thought to myself what a weird name for a cafe.I decided to pop in order an espresso and just sit there for some minutes. It was quite small but elegant , you know one of those places where you get a tiny cup of coffee for $10 dollars. As soon as I walked in I knew I was only ordering coffee. It had a few tables , a small couch and two counters (one by the window) I took a seat at one of the tables close to the wall. I guess the best thing about the place was that they had wifi. I took out my laptop and placed it on the table. Oh did I forget to say , I am a writer , I had been having a hard time coming up with an id...

Woo!!!!!!, woooo!!!!!!!!. So I was nominated for a LIEBSTER award by http://www.kazinidaily.com/. Thank You for the nomination. This award is given to new and upcoming bloggers with less than 200 blog followers, it is  a  great way  to discover  new blogs  and get to know other bloggers, promoting and supporting upcoming blogs. The rules are: You must link the person’s blog who nominated you for the award. Answer the 11 questions given by the person who nominated you. Pick an additional 5-11 people to nominate with UNDER 200 blog followers. You cannot nominate the blogger who nominated you. You must inform the nominees that have been nominated. Kazini's questions 1.  What do you like most about your blog ? I guess the fact that it is simply what goes on in my head. 2.   What do you hate most about it? It has so little 3. Which of your posts had the highest stats? Why do you think this was so? My Women's Day post. I think that's p...